My anxiety has been through the roof recently, our holidays were so busy I loved attending the Commonwealth Games, the swimming was amazing. But it was crowded and noisy and just being in a different place and out of routine is hard.
We’ve been home a week now and I’m finding it very challenging to get back into my uni study routine. We’ve had road crews doing construction near us day and night, sleep has continued to be elusive. Our wifi keeps disappearing, which is a real problem when you are studying online. Even our printer has stopped working.
My last assignment came back, I got 21 out of 30 which feels like I failed. To be honest anything less than 30 feels like a fail when you have perfectionist tendencies. Logically I know I passed, but that negative voice in my head is telling me I’m a failure, I should throw it all in, and just give up.
So here I am at the library, telling that negative voice to fuck off. I’m going to make use of the free library wifi, their not too expensive printers and get my study on. These are my weapons with which I go into battle against that voice.
Spotify and my beloved headphones:
Timmy Trumpet and Dimatik will keep the DoofDoof tunes going and help me focus. Not too loud though, it is a library. 🤣
This app reminds me to breathe and helps me take a moment to relax and unwind. It has great mini meditations that only take 1 – 3 minutes. Best bit of this app, it reminds me that it’s okay not to be perfect, I can get very caught up on trying to relax, just right, which is not very relaxing.
To fight my Crohns dehydration demons.
So I can access my uni course on my phone. I prefer to use the library computers but sometimes my sensory issues make that hard, especially if I need to sit next to a stranger who has strong perfume /deodorant, or is very fidgety. This app means I can find a comfy, isolated spot of the library and get my work done.
An Instagram friend put me on to this app. Set the timer for 30 minutes and it grows virtual tree and keeps me locked out of distracting apps like Facebook and Instagram. I whitelisted Spotify and Blackboard so I can still access them.
And now I’ve checked in here, I should knuckle down and get some study done. 🎧📖💡